Dec 03 2008
Sleepless Nights and Contemplating E-Publishing
Ugh. I’ve had four bad nights in a row with the Pibler waking up what seems every 20 minutes. He has a cough and the remains of a cold, which seem to make it impossible for him to sleep anywhere but on top of my chest, to one side so it makes my arm go dead. Not very comfortable, but if I move - he wakes up. Or even if I don’t move.
Today it really hit me, and I had a bit of a meltdown this afternoon. So often I get caught up in all my plans and schemes and it takes a while to register my sleep deprivation, and really feel it.
I had an uplifting meeting with my Kundalini Yoga teacher and mentor today. I don’t actually go to any of her classes anymore, due to finances and babysitting, but we still meet up now and again, and it never fails to reconnect me with my sense of myself as a spiritual being.
She’s good at reminding me that although I might not have much time for yoga and meditation practice now, I am walking a strong spiritual path as a mother, and am setting the foundation for the rest of the Pibler’s life right now.
It’s odd how I forget that on a day-to-day basis. It’s a real challenge trying to stay spiritually uplifted when my needs for solitude, retreat and sanga (spiritual community) are not met. I’m putting it out there that I need more of this, but for now, I’m going to make it a priority to meet with people who inspire me to keep my awareness. And I’m looking forward to being able to go on a sweat lodge again in the new year - I’ve missed those!
On the writing front, I’ve signed up for a free seminar called ‘Independent and E-Publishing’ through the Tight Lip Stories and Poetry organisation. There will be a discussion about how 3AM Magazine “built its strong reputation and made credible internet publishing as an alternative to print publishing in last 6 or so years, and a discussion about Internet publishing as an alternative route for writers and poets to get their work read by a wider audience, and as perhaps a route towards print publication”. Looking forward to that!
My raw food interest is expanding - I’m looking at recipes on the net and getting quite excited about trying some, such as a ‘green smoothie’ and a soup - a raw soup? I didn’t think it was possible.
